Sunday, August 30, 2009

divine intervention

i really do want to see the world from a new perspective.
i'm starting to see how everyone is kinda in a rut and i refuse to end up like that.
ugh lets move to mars!

Saturday, August 22, 2009

theres a lot of things turned bad out there.

put your foot next to a marble...
just stand there
look down on it
WE ARE THE MARBLE.

"ive seen a lot of what this world can do and its breaking my heart in two."

honestly, it kinda feels like the entire universe is taking my soul captive.
and i become a little bit colder each day.
i can feel my toes getting frostbite.

theres a lot of WHATTHEFUCKERY going on and I hate it. a lot.
and im just one person that is unable to anything about it.

i need to find the root of this anxiety before i die.

"baby baby, its a wild world."

Friday, August 7, 2009

roar.

family time is kinda lame.
my cousin is moving in.
with her three babies.

fml.

Saturday, July 25, 2009

your a pain in the ass

the world is a pain in the ass.
i hate people. i hate everyone in the world.
all the prejudice makes me sick

FUCK YOU RELIGION.

Thursday, July 23, 2009

i never realized.

how much i love and need my mom.
she really has become a big part of my life.
i used to push her away because i assumed she didnt care.
but now that ive had to be dependent on her ive realized how amazing she is.
she has become one of my best friends. im so glad ive gotten a chance to know my mommy<3



its not like i hated her, or never wanted her in my life.
i just never talked to her like i do now.

i feel lucky that i have the opportunity to have my mom and i feel bad for girls that dont. :/
every girl needs a mother.

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

why

is it that the one person can kill your soul, your spirit, and your smile says one things to you and everything seems to be back in order.

im not sad.
im happy because he imed me. how lame am i. :/

today was..

another worst day of my life.

it doesnt make it better when he apologizes for every time hes fucked up. i want him in the worst way but im not up to standards apparently. direct quote. sometimes i just feel like hes got a leash on my lungs. a beautiful bow tie on a box of a broken heart. am i that replaceable ? am i that horrible? i thought he was saving me.